Eh, Social anxiety. That one's a killer. If you suspect you have it, you probably do, sadly enough. Have you see a therapist about it? If you can, see a specialist, and not your primary care doctor. Most of the time, general practitioners aren't equipped to handle mental health issues. The best thing to do is to find a psychologist in order to get on a drug treatment plan. I hate hate hate medications, but they're the only thing that work for me. Another idea is to try a psychologist, or a therapist, just to talk. I've been in therapy pretty consistently since I was 13. It's helped more than anything else, just having someone to talk to.
Think of it this way - it's a GOOD THING. Being different than most is awesome. We might not come off as smooth or normal, but who cares? Inside we know we're so much more awesome than everyone else :)
I feel you on the awkwardness about relationships/babies. I don't want kids, and I prefer not being in a relationship (too many neurosis make living with someone else really really difficult for me).
Don't worry about being selfish. It's what you HAVE to be. I think of it this way - no one else is going to look out for you, so you have to take it into your own hands. I'm quite selfish, and I embrace it. Who says I have to be perfect and selfless all the time, especially when I'll get taken advantage of for it?
It's taken me a long time, but I've finally realized I'm mostly happy with who I am. I embrace my "flaws", because it's who I am, and I'm not going to change, especially not because it's proper and expected.
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Date: 2011-10-06 06:53 am (UTC)Think of it this way - it's a GOOD THING. Being different than most is awesome. We might not come off as smooth or normal, but who cares? Inside we know we're so much more awesome than everyone else :)
I feel you on the awkwardness about relationships/babies. I don't want kids, and I prefer not being in a relationship (too many neurosis make living with someone else really really difficult for me).
Don't worry about being selfish. It's what you HAVE to be. I think of it this way - no one else is going to look out for you, so you have to take it into your own hands. I'm quite selfish, and I embrace it. Who says I have to be perfect and selfless all the time, especially when I'll get taken advantage of for it?
It's taken me a long time, but I've finally realized I'm mostly happy with who I am. I embrace my "flaws", because it's who I am, and I'm not going to change, especially not because it's proper and expected.
Okay, that got rambly and long...